I am aware that everyone has their moments of self-doubt and 'no one cares or understands me'.
Right now, I am going through that. It's compounded by some other things too.
The thing is, and I'm sure I'm not the only one, I have to suffer in silence.
When I have tried to talk about it to others in the past, I've been flat out ignored or basically told to get over it. So, after a while, I stop trying. Because I know nobody cares.
When I see those posts of "Talk to me about anything. I'm here for you." I laugh because I know it's not true. In fact, some of those posts soon after unfollow me. Which is their right, but still...
So, I stay quiet. Because unlike others, if I post my troubles, no one is going to send me a message to cheer me up. It's been proven over and over again.
I know I'm probably not the easiest person to deal with. But I have tried in the past to be there for others. And every time, they aren't there for me.
And I'm putting this out there knowing hardly anyone will read it. And if they do, their problems will out weigh mine. So, I'll be ignored. Again. I'm used to it by now.
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